tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4817997459133140951.post3579877143990914779..comments2013-08-31T04:15:52.486-07:00Comments on You mean the sky isn't blue?!: Healing is Not for Sissies!stepping-out-into-faithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11148916520546455595noreply@blogger.comBlogger10125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4817997459133140951.post-14473060850940340892012-12-03T21:25:55.258-08:002012-12-03T21:25:55.258-08:00just beginning the journey of healing at the ripe ...just beginning the journey of healing at the ripe old age of 38 for things done many many years ago. repressed until my mind and body couldnt take it any more and came out in 'conversion disorder' which causes periods of paralysis when my mind causes my body to shut down. thank you for sharing and giving hope. i really do hope there is a light at the end of the tunnel.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4817997459133140951.post-70843996545978060652012-07-13T21:54:54.859-07:002012-07-13T21:54:54.859-07:00the truth does set us free from the secrets of our...the truth does set us free from the secrets of our abusers! Thank you so much for sharing!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02830384501330123906noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4817997459133140951.post-80231947106452084592012-07-12T13:43:27.783-07:002012-07-12T13:43:27.783-07:00Thank you so much for writing this. the begging fo...Thank you so much for writing this. the begging for air in the car is word for word how i used to feel. unworthy of fresh air and wrong to point out that it is unhealthy. and other stuff. <br /><br />thank you.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4817997459133140951.post-75948890343380125012012-07-01T12:27:34.163-07:002012-07-01T12:27:34.163-07:00Thank you stepping-out-into-faith. Thank you for r...Thank you stepping-out-into-faith. Thank you for reaffirming that I did all that I could. Yes, the disconnect is real. So real at times it feels overwhelming. Staying true to myself helps me through those overwhelming times. There are times when I can be hard on myself, drilling my own mind trying to find her. It's not every day that I do this,just the times when I have the nightmares or the flashes.Thank you so much, and I will take time to recover,rest and to enjoy all the good days that are coming..God bless you..RiRiAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4817997459133140951.post-38839109337485198382012-07-01T07:17:43.220-07:002012-07-01T07:17:43.220-07:00RiRi, I really appreciate what you have written he...RiRi, I really appreciate what you have written here and I want to thank you from my heart for sharing your story too. I am so so sorry that they did that to you. You deserved so much better and my heart hurts for that tender little girl. I'm thankful that God protected you just as he did me by allowing our minds to escape when our bodies could not. I feel like I need to say a couple of things. First, I want to say that you are NOT responsible for one moment of what they did to you. Not one single moment. They let you down. You did NOT let her down. She is part of you and all parts of you did the best they could in an unbearable situation. I say Bravo! You survived and came through it with that tender, compassionate heart intact. They did not win. I also noticed how we tend to speak about ourselves, especially our young selves in the third person. I can feel that disconnect and I can relate. We survivors speak the same language, you know? Lastly, I hope you know that you are not alone and I hope that you continue to lean on Him and please be kind to yourself. Healing is such hard work. Take time to recover and to rest and to enjoy the good days, because I promise you, there will be more of them to enjoy!stepping-out-into-faithhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11148916520546455595noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4817997459133140951.post-29122828053956025972012-07-01T07:05:09.856-07:002012-07-01T07:05:09.856-07:00Thank you Jennifer for taking time to read it and ...Thank you Jennifer for taking time to read it and comment <3stepping-out-into-faithhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11148916520546455595noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4817997459133140951.post-40628080519847690882012-07-01T07:04:20.755-07:002012-07-01T07:04:20.755-07:00Jess, Just knowing I'm not alone has been a re...Jess, Just knowing I'm not alone has been a real lifesaver for me.<br />I'd like to share one of my favorite quotes with you: <br />"Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another, 'What! You too? I thought I was the only one"~ C. S. Lewis <br />Thank you friend!stepping-out-into-faithhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11148916520546455595noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4817997459133140951.post-274684246807691182012-06-30T08:38:17.746-07:002012-06-30T08:38:17.746-07:00Thank you for sharing. It does takes courage from ...Thank you for sharing. It does takes courage from heaven for me to walk this road of healing. Your statement at the very end, dissociation being a gift from God. It was this you said that ring so true in my heart last night.Raped by both parents repeatedly, molested by my grandmothers, molested by a brother, and bullied and molested on my elementary school bus which seemed like it lasted forever, was all too much for a little girl to see and feel. I have flashes and nightmares of these events. I don't have her with me and I do try so hard to be in her skin. Sometimes I feel I let her down by not protecting her,not being strong enough to fight all of them off me. I feel separated from her and even though the flashes and dreams tell me her story it seems like it's not enough for me. I want her back but she's gone. I do believe that it was God's mercy in allowing the dissociation at this elementary age. The grief just hurts so deeply. Last night God helped me to accept what happened to another degree. It felt frightening for me but I'm still here and I'm still willing to continue this process of healing. And I'm grateful just as you are to have a Creator who loves me dearly and will continue to be with me all of the way...Thank you again for sharing such an intimate part of your experience. It has blessed me this morning...RiRiAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4817997459133140951.post-76819504657137042522012-06-25T16:11:50.982-07:002012-06-25T16:11:50.982-07:00Thank you for sharing your storyThank you for sharing your storyJennifer Whttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07270734246711789355noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4817997459133140951.post-51470075093126674362012-06-25T15:42:40.816-07:002012-06-25T15:42:40.816-07:00I think you hit the nail on the head for me! I hav...I think you hit the nail on the head for me! I have always been a "We" and not an "I". Thank You!<br />~JessAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com